the ocars

Many surprises. The one that was totally off was The Departed winning Best Picture. It was a good movie, but it was no best picture in my opinion. So, if the Departed won, doesn't that mean that Infernal Affairs wins too?

And shit, that was blasphemy, the announcer woman said, "JAPANESE FILM" when it won best adapted screenplay. Fuck you bitch. It's from Hong Kong.

Oscars was alright. I really hated those silhouettes. Fucking retarded. And Eva Green, stop wearing makeup. You are more beautiful without it.

weekends

I probably mentioned this before many times, but I fucking love weekends. I love them. I've been playing Lord of the Rings Online for hours (WoW is on the back burner until the LOTR stress test is done) and I can't stop playing......until the motherfucking weekdays come. Those are shit days. I hate weekdays, nothing but do this shit and do that shit. It bores the hell out of me. This is the most stressful semester ever. It is like I am intentionally trying to kill myself without actually perfoming suicide. I doubt a job gets any harder than this. It's just so many things to think about. Milestone this, milestone that......goddamit. Then the Oscars are tomorrow which will be a fucking great distraction while I work on homework.......do you think I'll even do homework when that is on? Fuck no. I wish I could do my homework early enough to have some breathing room, but there is always something to do. It's frustrating to say the least. I'm really pissed at my Technical and Professional Writing teacher. Nobody knows what he wants. He gave everybody C's and says that it was very impressive. WTF?

Anyways, I wish the weekend had one more day. Then I would be satisfied. Or a bunch of money. No matter what people say about money, "Money can't bring happiness".......FUCK YOU. It does bring happiness..........happiness of a stress free life. The only thing you need to stress about is robbers trying to steal your money.

DIE GODDAMIT!!!

Why won't you die you son of a bitch!!!! FUCKING DIE!!! It's beating me up over and over again. It's literally trying to break me. I wish I can remove it. It's a nasty habit. Why can't I stop it? Why? Is it in our nature to do it? I'm doing it just by typing this. I'm refusing to have a normal life. It's a monster I tell you. It's the Tyrannosaurus Rex, the girl from Ringu, Freddy Krueger, Jason (and Jason's mother), and a huge giant squid all wrapped into one hideous beast. JUST DIE!!!

lazy but determined

I am Waldorf, and I just attained the level title of 23. Please excuse the name as it was given to me by two gorgeous lesbians who didn't know their ass from their head. I am on a mission to become badass and get lucky with the blood elf females....lesbian or straight......the females are hot. I'm slowly getting towards the goal. Slowly but surely...

...ah, dammit. I have homework to do. Fucking computer classes.

love hurts

Sorry for both parties that I have to make my assumptions on the matter. These are my opinions and does not resemble what really happened or what will happen.

It was my stance that I didn't want to say anything about a certain guy and girl, but it sort of becomes a reason why I don't want to be in a relationship despite having a huge amount of attraction for the opposite sex. For those who don't know the names of the ex-couple, it is a good thing, but if you do know, it will give some context.

The girl finally revealed the points on why she had to break up with the guy. I won't side with one or the other, but I do know that she felt justified with breaking up with him. She moved on. The guy is trying to but won't stop relieving the memories he had with her. Before I go on with that point, I have to say that it was a wake up call for the guy. He got a job soon after the break up. I would have to believe that becoming separated gave him that motivation because he would have been stuck in the same position year after year.

Currently, the guy had said that he had given up. Given up on what, I have no idea, but I hope he understands that she had to do something before the relationship gets any worse. Because if she kept that relationship going for several years more, the fall would have been harder. I hope that the guy doesn't give up on future relationships. He will find the right person.

As for the girl, from the pictures on her site and despite the last post, she looks really happy. I hope she will find the right guy that acknowledges her being and understands why she has to do certain things her way.

So now you are asking yourself, what the hell does this have to do with Mr. Mumbles? Well lots actually. It was hard to view this relationship from an objective and outside view. If this situation occurs to me (if should the time come of when I'll grow up), will I be the one to push ahead and look to the future? Or will I get locked in the past? I am leaning towards the latter since I do talk about the past most of the time. Especially on why I didn't do this or didn't do that years ago. It's hard to let go, but a part of me wants to move on and just accept what happens.

Another thing I'm struggling with is what if I just broke up with a girl and she takes it badly. If you know me, I would feel awful. I have too much guilt that has built up over the years to let that happen. To see a girl break down because I didn't want her company. It's one of the worse things I can ever do. That is why I'm so scared of getting into a relationship. It would be great if the breakup was mutual, but what if at that moment, I would appear to be the bad guy? It's something I don't want to think about.

Anyways, I do wish well for both of them and hope they will find happiness down the road.

school closed down

So my one class class was cancelled. Eh. Why can't this be Wednesday when it matters? At least I can catch up in classes where I am behind.

curse of the golden flower

I hate how I'm forced to switch to the google blogger. Fucking ridiculous. Anyways, I finally got the chance to watch Curse of the Golden Flower by Zhang Yimou. It's a fucking great movie about a horribly dysfunctional royal family. I just loved it when everything broke down at the end. It's terribly satisfying. As for Chow Yun Fat, damn, I didn't know he can play a bad guy so well.

And yes, cleavage. The cleavage was just fantastic.

i'm exhausted

I love it when I reach the end of Wednesday. I can start to relax again but considering all the work that needs to be done for next week, I really do not know if that is possible. I'm just so tired. This semester is the hardest I have ever taken, even if I have taken 17 hours before. It is weird though. As much as I am tired, I never fall asleep in class anymore.

I haven't played any video games at all during this week. And to be honest, I'm starting to realize the difference. I am more productive, but my life has become a total bore. No Warcraft. No Portable Ops. No trying to get out of my room to score a drink at my friend's place. If this is what my life is, then damn, it will suck. You need relief, no not hand relief, but a way to just sit back and relax.

Oh well. When it's all over, I'll be happy. Then reality of trying to get a job can set in hours later. lol.

*As you can see, I have started to use a bit of javascript within the journal. Expect many more changes as I progress through the semester. Maybe a redesign of how it all looks.

down the drain......and its not a game

So, I bought another faceplate for my PSP. I was thinking of buying Guitaroo Man and Sid Meier's Pirates, but I had just noticed that I haven't beaten Metal Gear Portable Ops or Acid 2 yet. So I held off buying new games. Plus, I'm currently hooked on WoW (which I haven't played in two days because of homework).

So yeah. Heroes is the shit. Prison Break is the shit, Sarah is pretty, and that Korean guy that shit on. 24 got even more intense. And Lost is going to premire again this Wednesday. Goddamit. Why does TV have to get so good during my last semester here?

chicago bears lost

And you can now say that it is Grossman's fault. Two interceptions and those ridiculous snap fumbles........what a douche. They could have won.