love hurts

Sorry for both parties that I have to make my assumptions on the matter. These are my opinions and does not resemble what really happened or what will happen.

It was my stance that I didn't want to say anything about a certain guy and girl, but it sort of becomes a reason why I don't want to be in a relationship despite having a huge amount of attraction for the opposite sex. For those who don't know the names of the ex-couple, it is a good thing, but if you do know, it will give some context.

The girl finally revealed the points on why she had to break up with the guy. I won't side with one or the other, but I do know that she felt justified with breaking up with him. She moved on. The guy is trying to but won't stop relieving the memories he had with her. Before I go on with that point, I have to say that it was a wake up call for the guy. He got a job soon after the break up. I would have to believe that becoming separated gave him that motivation because he would have been stuck in the same position year after year.

Currently, the guy had said that he had given up. Given up on what, I have no idea, but I hope he understands that she had to do something before the relationship gets any worse. Because if she kept that relationship going for several years more, the fall would have been harder. I hope that the guy doesn't give up on future relationships. He will find the right person.

As for the girl, from the pictures on her site and despite the last post, she looks really happy. I hope she will find the right guy that acknowledges her being and understands why she has to do certain things her way.

So now you are asking yourself, what the hell does this have to do with Mr. Mumbles? Well lots actually. It was hard to view this relationship from an objective and outside view. If this situation occurs to me (if should the time come of when I'll grow up), will I be the one to push ahead and look to the future? Or will I get locked in the past? I am leaning towards the latter since I do talk about the past most of the time. Especially on why I didn't do this or didn't do that years ago. It's hard to let go, but a part of me wants to move on and just accept what happens.

Another thing I'm struggling with is what if I just broke up with a girl and she takes it badly. If you know me, I would feel awful. I have too much guilt that has built up over the years to let that happen. To see a girl break down because I didn't want her company. It's one of the worse things I can ever do. That is why I'm so scared of getting into a relationship. It would be great if the breakup was mutual, but what if at that moment, I would appear to be the bad guy? It's something I don't want to think about.

Anyways, I do wish well for both of them and hope they will find happiness down the road.