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So yeah, its just a normal week as always. I play videogames 1-2 hours a day, do homework, eat food once or twice, browse the internet. That's pretty much my typical day here. Which also means boring.

Only video games, movies, and forums have kept me going.

I laughed at my brother's journal. He posted that the internet and video games will consume and eat me alive while beautiful women pass by me like the wind. I will meet a girl whom I will love, but maybe the time isn't right or I could just be doing the whole girl thing wrong. Don't get me wrong. Girls are beautiful and have amazing personalities. This is what scares me. Maybe scared is the wrong word to use. I just think of women as untouchable. Once I break that barrier, there is no going back. Love, rather than lust for them, will take over. See that is what I'm doing right now. I'm lusting after them. For example, that hot chick from the cancelled Point Pleasant, the hot woman from Lost, or the amazing and talented Emmy Rossum. All of them are beautiful, and sure I've had dreams about them :), but I seriously don't think I'll have a chance of having a relationship with any of them if they existed without all that hollywood glamour. I don't know when I'll make that huge step into manhood. I've never stepped into those bounds. This is what still makes me immature. I can't bring myself to push ahead and just ask a girl out. Girls saying no is hard on me because it will be even harder to be friends with them. They will keep on thinking "omg, I can't believe he actually likes me.....what a freak." I guess that's just my problem. I just want to kiss a girl for about five minutes (which constitues into the phrase "making out"), but I guess that is asking too much.

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Congrats to my cousin, Felice, for graduating. I pray for good fortune in her future. I hope one day that she will become very successful.

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I watched Sin City on friday. This is truly an amazing achievement in film. Not only did it look remarkable, it also had a cool theme to its stories. Watch this film if you can take its over-the-top action. No other film can compare to it.

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As for videogames, I'm currently playing Splinter Cell: Chaos Theory. This is much better than its predecessors. I'm having a blast playing it. The gameplay has been opened and it is not linear anymore.

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Well that sums up what has been going on in my life and what I have been doing (which isn't much as you can see).